As I mentioned before, I believe that fear
limits our spiritual progress. In the early part of July, I had gone to
Mt. Shasta (in Northern California) for a conference that was being
held there. I'll post more info about Mt. Shasta later, but let me just
say that it is a very special place. Many people believe that this is
one of the most sacred mountains of the world. There are people that
visit this place from all over and there are many people who have had
encounters there with people from other dimensions and places from
within the earth. There is a city, called Telos, which exists about a
mile below the mountain and this city is inhabited by people who
originally came from the continent of Lemuria (thousands of years ago),
which existed in the Pacific ocean before it sank. According to the
stories, there were about 25,000 at the time who were able to escape
and many of them were able to relocate to below Mt Shasta and establish
the city, known as Telos. (Ok, I guess I'm getting off topic a bit, but
it's really fascinating stuff).
Anyway, I was with a group of people (perhaps 50-60) and we were doing a group meditation off one of the trails (Bunny Flats, I think) and during that meditation, we were told to go within and connect with our heart, etc. One of the other things that is important to learn is to listen to the promptings, intuition, feelings, etc that come to us from within. Too many times, we think that our answers have to come from external sources (and many times they do), but we should also confirm those with what we feel inside.
So, after the group meditation, everyone was told that the next experience was a more personal one. Everyone was to separate and go to wherever they were told to go. So, it was quite interesting to see 50+ people just spread out going off the paths to wherever they were told to go. Many people had some neat experiences and I was one of those who did, although I was not anticipating the kind of experience I was to have. I really wanted to have a special experience there and I kept asking, "Where should I go now?" and I would get answers to go this rock, or to that tree or over that hill. I finally came to a place where I felt I should stop and meditate and pray.
As I was sitting there praying, I noticed that there were some large black ants crawling on me, and it was kind of bugging me because they were interrupting my train of thought. It was at that moment that the thought came to me, "Let the ants crawl on you"... I was shocked to get an impression like that. Never, in my wildest dreams would I just let ants crawl on me, if I could help it. But, I thought I should go with that and follow that prompting. So, I just sat there and the ants started to crawl on my legs, arms and hands. I thought that I would get bit for sure, but they weren't biting me. It was still hard to just let them crawl on me. I had some ants crawl into my shirt sleeve and each new area of unexplored territory they found seemed to get my heart racing a little more. Then, I would relax and as the minutes passed, I became more used to it. I'm not saying that I enjoyed it, just that the fear would subside for a while and the fear would be replaced with peace. For about 20-30 minutes, I allowed these ants to crawl all over my body, simply trusting in God that I would not get bit. My fear turned to peace and tears started to flow from my eyes as I gained a greater appreciation and love for these little creatures. There were probably 25 of them crawling all over my skin for that time period, and yet, I did not get bit once. It is hard to describe, but the experience was a transforming one for me and perhaps in some small way, reduced my dependency on fear, replacing it with love.
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